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Well, my weight loss still seems to be slow after that long plateau, but at least it is going down. I lost 1.4 lbs this past week with .6 the week before. That puts me at 196 even. I feel more confident that I will stay in Onederland now, I really did not want to ever go back into the 2’s. So, I am fine with that.

I am finding it really hard to do real exercise this summer. Between the kids being home and all the activities going on (BBQ’s, birthday parties, beach party’s, trips, etc) I feel stretched. I am more active outside doing things. Especially on and around the house, I have built a deck, reroofed my shed/shop which at first I thought was 14′ by 20′ but it is 16′ by 35′, leveled some ground and put up a soft sided carport on another part of the property, redid the landscaping in front, well redoing might be pushing it, I put some landscaping in. That included wheel barrowing about 20 cu yds of wood chips (that is a heck of a lot of chips), putting in landscaping logs and new flower beds and plants. Cut down a tree and trimmed back several others and started a cobble stone walkway (I need to finish). All these things needed to be done and with the exception of the roof my boys and I have done it all by ourselves. We did have some help with the roof from a friend. I am proud of what we have accomplished but that is leaving little time to do an exercise routine. I am getting some walking in everyday but not as much as I really would like.

I start a new job in 2 weeks and still lots to finish around the house before the hard rain starts. I do live in the Pacific Northwest so it won’t be long before construction type projects have to go on hold (at least for me).

3 more weeks and school starts again maybe I will be able to get back into a routine and finish kicking this extra weight to the curb. Until then, I am thinking I am going to enjoy the last few weeks with my boys and try to get some fun stuff in there too.

Today was my birthday and it was a pretty unassuming day. Mother Nature started it off with a bang – I woke up to fairly heavy rain (rained most of the day) and she sent TOM to visit for my birthday, Yay (not :(  ) My oldest Son went and bought me an Espresso Shake, I love them but mega cals and that was pretty much it. I think they thought it was all done. I had a friend invite us over for dinner Sat for my birthday and last night my Sis and Brother-I-L invited us over for BBQ ribs. Oh, my boys have ribbed me all week saying I am “officially Old” now because I am 50 today. I thought they would at least offer to cook dinner, give me a home made card but NO. They had their fun. Now they are 15 and almost 17 years old, it could have been done. It bums me out a little that they did not put in much effort. All-in-all I had a nice birthday weekend. I keep telling my boys 50 is not old anymore and I am not as “old” as I was last year, Fifty is Nifty. I am in much better shape (and thinner by 54 lbs) than last year. So, yes Fifty is Nifty both in weight loss and age.

So, I will do my best to tighten the ship on eating for the next few day and STAY away from the scale, I don’t want to know. Hopefully, come weight in on Saturday morning I will be fine. I didn’t over eat at anything, just the 3 days in a row of having a “treat” that I am afraid of. Each day my eating was good except for the one meal and today the only things was that shake, well, I shouldn’t say only that is a big treat.

Have a GREAT week everyone

Enjoy the last of your summer

I FINALLY made it into Onederland!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am now 198. It seemed to take forever!  The last 6 or 7, I don’t know maybe even 8 weeks (I lost count) I have been at the same flippin weight 200 - 201. It did not seem to matter what I was doing. I was standing in the door way to Onderland but it seem to be locked. However, in that time I did lose inches. So, that is a great thing.

I am so excited to be in Onederland I can hardly contain myself. But What I think I am more excited about, really, is that I broke that stalemate. With a 2.5 lb loss this week, I feel like my body might FINALLY be ready to move on, YAY.

It was a bit frustrating and discouraging at times, but I hung in there and now I am reaping the rewards. On to bigger (well, smaller) and better things!!

Have a GREAT weekend, Everyone!

P.S. I went and checked my weight loss history. It has been 7 weeks. Not that it matters because it felt like months, months. THANKS FOR ALL THE SUPPORT!

I just wanted to share a thought with you. Why am I so resistant to going for my morning walk?? I live in a beautiful place and even walking on the streets is like walking in nature. This morning I went for my walk, 2.25 miles. I have three different walks I go on all between 2 and 2.25 miles. All have a natural interval training build right in because it is so hilly here. I work at keeping the same pace up the hills as I do going down so my heart rate naturally goes up as I go up the hill and slows as I am going down. What more could I ask for? This morning I had no music and really nothing on my mind so I just observed my surroundings. It really was beautiful. The birds were chirping away, like they were having a conversation. I would hear them on one side of me and then the other. I saw some squirrels grabbing acorns a chipmunk ran across the road and stopped to take a look at me. I saw several rabbits, a few small snakes, and a hawk grabbing a snake. A momma quail with two babies thinking they were hidden behind some tall grass until I got too close. The wild Canterbury bells (flowers) were standing tall and blooming. The wild blackberries are in bloom too. There were all kinds of yellow, orange, red and purple flowers. At one point I walk under this canopy of trees that is like being in the middle of the forest. Everything smelled fresh and clean because of the rain yesterday. So with all this beauty to be in the mist of, WHY am I so resistant to my morning walk? It is a great way to start my day, but I guess when I am barely awake, I would rather sleep in a bit. Maybe I am just plain lazy or I forget about all of Gods glory out there waiting for me.

I have to remember the great feeling I get with my morning walk so I don’t skip it anymore. 

Have a great day

Ok. So, everyone is probably getting tired of hearing this as I AM – I maintained again. That is 4 weeks in a row. I am going to get back on the LOSE WEIGHT wagon this week. I just could not grasp it last week and honestly was really enjoying the fact that both my boys were at camp, AT THE SAME TIME, that has NEVER happened and as a windowed Mom I rarely get time to myself. To have a WHOLE week to myself was HEAVEN; I remembered what true peace and quiet was like. Although, about day 3 I was really missing them and the house seem too quiet. 

I have been thinking about my goals for this week. This week should be relatively “normal” (what ever that is these days, lol)The past 4 weeks I haven’t been exercising consistently nor have I been on any kind of food plan, including journaling my food. I have decided to first focus on getting back on track with my exercise and “watch my food”. Then in the next few weeks I will get back to journaling my food intake or sooner if I am not losing. 

 Goals
1 – WATER @ least 80 oz

2 – Morning walk minimum 1.5 miles
 

 3–3 days other aerobic activity (M,W,F)
 

4 – 2 days strength training (T, TH)

5 – No junk, fatty or sugary foods.

I have been reflecting back to when my journey started a year ago. I was feeling like a beached whale before. Now, I am starting to remember what it feels like to be more active and WANTING to go do things. It is pretty amazing what 50 lbs gone will do. It is a year now since I decided I wanted to do something about myself (right before the 4th last year). I got off to a very slow start, 17lbs the first half then I found this wonderful place (BS) and doubled that (almost, 33lbs) for the past 6 months, still slow I know. Now, I know I am not setting any records but I am doing so much better than last year and even better than the year before that. Do I want to lose faster, HECK YES but as long as the scale is going down and the inches are coming off, I am good.         THANKS EVERYONE

Well, I am happy to say I maintained this past week.
I never thought I would be happy about that until I reached goal weight. But considering the lack of exercise & water and the food I ate while gone, I was expecting a gain.

I got to get in gear this week!!!  I need to break that 200.0 even.   It is getting sad to see I am so close to Onederland and haven’t broken through. On the other hand, I am glad I have been able to maintain the last 3 weeks, a heck of a lot better than a gain.  

Also, I was looking over my charts with weight and measurements last night after measuring again. I was pretty darn happy with myself. Although over the last 3 months I have only lost 9 pounds (not good). I have lost inches!! I have lost 3 inches off my bust (mostly back fat, yay), 2 inches off my waist, 6 inches off my abdomen, and 2 inches off my hips. An inch off my arms and legs are the same but much toner. That is a lot of inches for so few pounds. I am especially happy with the 6 inches off my gut, I don’t look pregnant anymore. I guess this proves how important exercise is, no getting around it.

Measuring is so important!! I am not nearly as upset with the few pounds now that I see I have lost inches. 

Have a great week

Sheryl

Hello all,

I am disappointed to say I have a maintain this week.  Well, it isn’t as bad as it could be, I guess. When I got home from CA I weighed and gained 2.4 lbs. So I lost that and TOM is looming. I have felt the bloat the last couple of days. So, I guess it could have been a gain very easily. BUT MAN, I was really hoping for a least a tiny loss. It sucks being right at 200.0    At least a .2 loss would have allowed me to open that door to Onederland, the door seems to be locked.                                                       WHO HAS THE KEYS?? 

My Trip to California was fun, had a great time for the most part. That Thursday was graduation and party, my niece had a wonderful time. The mood shifted the next day (Friday) when we received a phone call saying here grandmother had passed on. So, I am getting ready to head to Oregon for the Memorial service and help get her house ready to sell. Everyone lives in different states so, unfortunately, it all has to be done now. It will be a long, emotional week. 

I am really hoping for a maintain this next week. With staying in a hotel, doing cleaning and moving stuff, I have no idea how I will be eating. Of course, I will make the best choices I can at the moment, but honestly I am not going to stress about it with everything else going on. I am starting to wonder if I have some deep emotional problem with getting into the one’s. I just can’t seem to open that Onederland door. But also given everything that has been going on the last couple of months, is it me or circumstances. I guess I will find out when I get back. I am really hoping that things settle down so I can get back on track.  

There is good news in all of this – Yes, I haven’t lost much in the last couple of months and I even had a small gain at one point BUT during all of this emotional stuff I would have eaten away my pain BEFORE. I am not doing that now so a small gain, maintaining and tiny losses are actually a VICTORY for me. I am NOT turning to food in anger, frustration or sadness anymore. I need to focus on the fact that I have lost 50lbs, 33 lbs since I joined BS and 17 lbs for the few months before I joined. So, getting that last 40 off shouldn’t be a problem, right!? I know I babbled a bit here, Thanks for reading.

Have a GREAT WEEK EVERYONE. I will see you at the end of week.

Good Morning, 

Thank-you ALL, for your kind words and support on my last blog.  I actually felt much better the next day and have been improving since. Blogging about my feelings when I got so overwhelmed helped a lot.

 Well, I am off to CA to my niece’s graduation.

I did weigh-in this morning – I lost .8 lb, (200.0) boy if I had those few extra days I might have lost over a pound and would have been in Onederland.

 Wish me luck that I stay at least somewhat focused while I am gone so I can come back and FINALLY get to Onederland next week. I will be back on Sunday.

Have a Great rest of the week,

Sheryl 

Hello Buddies,

Well I did not do as well this week on my plan – I lost .6 lb (put me at 200.8). I really wanted to lose at least 1.6 so I could see that one in front and after my 3.8 lb loss last week I thought I could do it.

 However, I do know the cause. I have been a bit depressed the last few days so I have not really exercised much and my calories have been too low and not drinking enough water (maybe 48oz).

Here is the deal; I am getting to really hate June. My best friend of 31 years, Mom is on her death bed. She went into the hospital at the beginning of the week (she has cancer) and found out there is nothing more that can be done for her which we all have accepted but it is still hard. My friend lives in a different state than her mom so she has been torn with wanting to stay with her mom but she has to go back home to be with her daughter that is graduating from HS next Thursday (I am going too) I am Jen’s “Aunt” as far as she is concerned. ALL of This been on my mind as well as talking daily with my friend.

PLUS, this whole thing has really brought up negative emotions in me. See Tomorrow (Sunday) is the anniversary of my Mom’s death (4 yrs) and Tuesday is the anniversary of my husband’s death (10 yrs). My challenge child has it a new high in his ability to frustrate the Hell out of me and now thinks it is funny. These things make me miss my husband even more. I need his stern hand to deal with my son. Plus, this anniversary means I have been without my husband longer than we were together. IT is so SAD that my soul mate had to be taken from me, the boys dad had to be taken. It has been a long road these last ten years raising two boys by myself. I miss HIM

The upside to all of this is instead of eating myself into oblivion and stuffing my emotions, I have been feeling them and doing my best to deal with them. I have actually gone the other direction to not eating enough; my cals have been around 800 for the last several days. I don’t dare eat anything I really like because I am afraid I will eat too much. I have ALWAYS eaten away my bad emotions. So, I guess this is a good first step. I just need to find the balance.

So, life goes on and we do the best that we can at the time. This next week will also be another challenge for me. I will be going to California for my “nieces” graduation and be gone from Wed thru Saturday (get home real late). To be gone from home staying at someone else’s house will be tough, especially given the situation. If her Mom hasn’t passed yet that will be looming and if she has, I really hope that doesn’t ruin my niece’s graduation celebration. Either way it won’t be good. She is already sad G-ma won’t be there.

Have a good week

Hello everyone,

Last week I did not write my blog on my weight loss, because there wasn’t one! I was embarrassed that for two weeks in a row that I gained!! I know it happens to the best but I had to get over it, first. My Sister has the Tony Horton 10 minute trainer program (the P90X, Beach Body guy). So I borrowed it.  I have been so overwhelmed with other stuff in my life I needed something to “JUST TELL ME WHAT TO DO” and I will do it.With this program there is a 10 day “Lean Jean” eating program. It is a well balanced, all food groups, eating plan, 3 meals, 2 snacks a day. The DVD’s are 10 minutes of fast paced no stopping exercise. 15 min in all with warm up and cool down. Perfect for me  MY ten day plan is WORKING!!!!!!I have lost 3.8 lbs this week, YAY that makes up for the 2.2 lb gain PLUS 1.6 lb loss.I am now at 201.4 so close to Onederland. I have to make it stick. Today is day 5 on this plan. MY last day will be Thursday so I am hoping for another good loss @ least 2.4 lbs to put me at 199. Heck, I would settle for 199.8 at this point JUST to SEE THAT ONE it has been 11 years since I have seen a one in front.That is only 1.6 lbs, surely, I can do that? So I will stick to this 10 day plan

Eat the food on plan

Do morning walk

Do muscle toning DVD in the morning

Do Cardio DVD in the evening

Drink at least 80oz of water (I have been doing well over that)

Have a great weekend!

I just want to say THANK YOU!
For all the comments and support I got on my last blog.I know it sounded like I was making a “mountain out of a mole hill” but it was the last straw.

I am fine now. I was venting!
The last couple of weeks have been very stressful for me. My challenge child has been more challenging than ever, some financial difficulties so a part time job isn’t cutting it any more. So, I had been getting a new resume together, put applications in at a few places hiring. As well as a few other mis-haps last week. And I want to get to Onederland so badly, I can taste it. My weigh-in was the last “OH, Shit” on the pile that nearly had me in tears. Even though I was trying to look at the bright side, which is why I talked about my 18 week journey.

I know it all sounds so silly now, even to me. But that is the way it was at the time.Pity Party is OVER. Done! I must move on.  So, don’t worry, I am fine. I just had to get it out of my system. That is less than a pound (not much less) so I know it could be many things. I was just “why this week, for my first official gain”Thank you though for your support and concern.

Have a Great Week